One of the things I fear the most.

When you become a parent you suddenly fear so many more things than you did before you had children. The world suddenly seems a very scary, fearful place.

I have many fears for my children. I fear many things like spiders and snakes and being in front of a truck when it’s brakes fail and dying to early and thunderstorms and dark corners.

But ones of the things I fear the most is loosing David – not in the literal sense, like he dies but in the sense that he is no longer a part of my life.

I have seen the ugly side of relationships – the abuse, the manipulation, the hurt, the resent, the ugly – both first hand and through friends. It doesn’t matter how happy you are right now or how much you promise things – nothing is guaranteed. Stuff happens whether you want to or not.

While the idealist in me believes that we will be together forever, a small part of me carries the past with me and this is something I fear!

Together with this and probably a bigger fear is that we both stop feeling the way we do now. Our relationship is still relatively new in the greater scheme of things but 5 years on and David still takes my breath away. I still look at him and think he is the sexiest man in the world. I still want to spend every second of every day with him. I still get excited when we have a date night, even if we don’t go anyway. He is the first person I phone ALWAYS (even when it annoys him). He is my person and I never ever want to stop feeling that and I never want him to stop feeling that.

There is much in the world to make us afraid.  There is much more in our faith to make us unafraid.  ~Frederick W. Cropp

What is one thing you are afraid of?

(From the collection of photos it is blatantly clear I need to do something with my hair)