I am not one of those calm people.
I am not one of those people who react well to unkowns.
This week has had me very tightly wound and its only Tuesday!
Yesterdays little fiasco with Johanna carried on today and so both mornings have started with fights. Its exhausting and worrying because I hate leaving my children with someone who doesn’t actually want to be watching them.
It stressed me out. It created unkowns and uncertainty. It had me scrambling for plan d and e. It made me want to make irrational decisions.
Then David and I have an issue we are dealing with that also is creating stress for us both, purely because it is more unknowns. I know it will all work out but it’s still a little stressful.
My dad called me earlier to say he can’t watch the kids this afternoon, so I had to take time off. This also stressed me out a little because I don’t like having to ask for time off and I really do not have leave left to take more!
I think we are capped at home and am actually glad my dad wont be at home this afternoon because he wouldnt have been able to work and that would have caused more tension. But it also means I have no internet until Thursday – not sure how I will cope :-p
So I decided about 5 minutes ago to let it all go. To just breathe, be calm and remember that my awesome boyfriend loves me, my kids are happy and healthy and it will all work out 🙂
(It is almost certain that in 5 minutes something will happen that will send me spiralling back into over reaction land :))
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To just breathe.. great advice.. just not always as easy to do when emotions are high..
((hugs))
Hope things only get better from this point forward 🙂
Hope things get better soon!
That entire stress on a Monday morning while you wait for the domestic to arrive, or not arrive is just something you cannot explain to someone who has not been there.
I usually start to get anxious on Sunday evening already – and start working out contingency plans in my head, so by the time my eyes pop open on a Monday morning I am in full panic mode and wound up as tights as a spring.
This week we had the cable theft on the Northern and Central lines, which made our maid late – she usually is very good about getting there. But it really really puts a spanner into the entire day, especially when you realise your entire house of cards is dependent on one person ….
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I also wait for the next thing to go wrong!! Bad bad habit!
Really hope nothing is thrown your way for the moment so you can really just enjoy it!
Just breathe – great advice. Love to you girl.
Unknowns can cause a lot of worry and stress, and often just breathing is the perfect remedy. Good for you!
Deep breath. If you can’t fix it immediately, let it go for a while.