I am not one of those calm people.
I am not one of those people who react well to unkowns.
This week has had me very tightly wound and its only Tuesday!
Yesterdays little fiasco with Johanna carried on today and so both mornings have started with fights. Its exhausting and worrying because I hate leaving my children with someone who doesn’t actually want to be watching them.
It stressed me out. It created unkowns and uncertainty. It had me scrambling for plan d and e. It made me want to make irrational decisions.
Then David and I have an issue we are dealing with that also is creating stress for us both, purely because it is more unknowns. I know it will all work out but it’s still a little stressful.
My dad called me earlier to say he can’t watch the kids this afternoon, so I had to take time off. This also stressed me out a little because I don’t like having to ask for time off and I really do not have leave left to take more!
I think we are capped at home and am actually glad my dad wont be at home this afternoon because he wouldnt have been able to work and that would have caused more tension. But it also means I have no internet until Thursday – not sure how I will cope :-p
So I decided about 5 minutes ago to let it all go. To just breathe, be calm and remember that my awesome boyfriend loves me, my kids are happy and healthy and it will all work out 🙂
(It is almost certain that in 5 minutes something will happen that will send me spiralling back into over reaction land :))