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One of the things I fear the most.

When you become a parent you suddenly fear so many more things than you did before you had children. The world suddenly seems a very scary, fearful place.

I have many fears for my children. I fear many things like spiders and snakes and being in front of a truck when it’s brakes fail and dying to early and thunderstorms and dark corners.

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But ones of the things I fear the most is loosing David – not in the literal sense, like he dies but in the sense that he is no longer a part of my life.

I have seen the ugly side of relationships – the abuse, the manipulation, the hurt, the resent, the ugly – both first hand and through friends. It doesn’t matter how happy you are right now or how much you promise things – nothing is guaranteed. Stuff happens whether you want to or not.

While the idealist in me believes that we will be together forever, a small part of me carries the past with me and this is something I fear!

Together with this and probably a bigger fear is that we both stop feeling the way we do now. Our relationship is still relatively new in the greater scheme of things but 5 years on and David still takes my breath away. I still look at him and think he is the sexiest man in the world. I still want to spend every second of every day with him. I still get excited when we have a date night, even if we don’t go anyway. He is the first person I phone ALWAYS (even when it annoys him). He is my person and I never ever want to stop feeling that and I never want him to stop feeling that.

There is much in the world to make us afraid.  There is much more in our faith to make us unafraid.  ~Frederick W. Cropp

What is one thing you are afraid of?

(From the collection of photos it is blatantly clear I need to do something with my hair)

 

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7 Comments

  1. 3 July, 2014 / 7:12 pm

    all I noticed was how happy you looked in the pics UNTIL you pointed me towards the hair 🙂

    Right now I’m actually fearful of a few things which means I need to get into the word because I’m normally not very fearful.

  2. Chan
    4 July, 2014 / 7:24 am

    What I fear most is being as lonely as I am now for the rest of my life.

  3. 4 July, 2014 / 8:40 am

    My biggest fear is failing to provide sufficiently for my children

  4. 4 July, 2014 / 6:03 pm

    Happy to recognise some of the pics and know I took them. 🙂

    I fear having to bury one of my children more than anything. I have loved and I have lost a partner to life… and I know the cycle of abuse like a second skin, but nothing will ever be okay again after standing next to my child’s open grave. NOTHING.

    I am not a Mommy blogger in the great way you are but I love my kids with a love only I know how deep it runs. How I have made horrendous decisions to give them a better life and not pay for my mistakes.

    I love them with a love that is more of love… xxx

  5. 7 July, 2014 / 7:38 pm

    Gosh, so many fears I have. I had a post written up on this topic for this past Friday but I had a haircut instead! I’ll publish this Friday.

  6. 7 July, 2014 / 7:39 pm

    ps…your hair is fine!

  7. 9 July, 2014 / 8:50 pm

    My fears are usually related to my children and grandchildren. They say fear and trust cannot coexist….I am still working on the trusting part.

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